There are lots of reasons not to write, especially with a
baby. Projectile poop, which turns out to be a real thing, distracts from the
beauty of language and the romance of writing. Since I spent almost the entire
pregnancy exhausted and poem-less, I really wanted to break the dry spell and
find reasons to write again.
A poet-friend challenged me to exchange new poems with her
weekly. This looming deadline has helped to motivate me to read poetry, think
about new lines and finally write and share the end product with her. After
all, who wants to admit defeat to a friend? And who wants to stop writing once
and for all?
Writing isn’t only the quiet time I spend in front of the
computer screen. It is also the time I spend thinking about lines, images and
ideas as I finish the baby’s daily laundry, clean his bottles, and finish other
chores. (No, I’m not only writing about baby-safe laundry detergent.) Getting
into the habit, or rather getting back into the habit, of mentally existing in
search of a poem makes it possible to write again.
One draft of a new poem a week isn’t a lot, especially since
there aren’t always salvageable lines or ideas in the drafts. But it is
important to write and keep my mind in that world, even now. Or perhaps
especially now.
When I’m with my baby, my attention is on him. And sometimes
that attention includes talking to him about poetry. I read him my drafts,
lines that persist in my head and published poems from his growing library. The
rhythm and rhyme in many of his books has made me think differently about
language and voice. Without the deadline, I might not have remembered to look
for poetry daily.
Thank you to my friend for the encouragement and the
excitement of reading her new weekly poem.
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